I want to....

…remember the sleepless nights.

…smile even when I’m tired.

…rejoice in the chaos.

…hold him as much as I can.

…be thankful for diaper duty.

…focus on what really matters.

…press him close.

…joyfully endure showerless days.

…breathe deeply.

…love fearlessly.

…revel in his innocence.

…be proud of the dark circles under my eyes.

…feel his heart beat against my chest.

…not be ashamed of my stretch marks.

…be bathed in peace.

…accept my body for the beautiful giver of life that it is.

…leave no cheek unkissed.

…have no regrets, for I know all too well that this time with him is fleeting. He will be grown and gone before I can blink my eyes. And I want to make every moment count, now while I still can.

(thank you McMama for beautifully expressing what I feel as a mommy to two beautiful boys)