Monday, September 29, 2008
So everything was fine, mom takes Maddox and I to lunch. I then drive home and my mind is going through all the things I need to get done before we go out of town: load the car, don't forget Maddox's medicine, set the dog food out by the back door...etc. I turn down the long street to get to our house and I see a motorcycles cop and realize YES, I had been speeding. I got a ticket. Blah, what a crappy couple of hours.
Moving on, the trip to Oklahoma went really well. Maddox traveled like an angle on the way down, and he did great while we were there! I was so proud of him at the funeral. It was a very nice service and it was great to be with family. Friday we spent time with the family and Saturday Brad's parents and the 3 of us went to the Tulsa Fair. We had a great time eating all the wonderful fair food (Sarah, I ate fried pickles and thought of you the whole time) and looking at all the neat booths. The best part of that trip was Maddox said Momma!!!! oh it is so sweet to hear it and he waiting for his grand mom to hear it!! We were all in the car and the way home from Tulsa and he said "MOMMA"!!!
The ride home on Sunday was a little rough for Maddox. He was ready to get out of the car about an hour into the 6 hour road trip. Brad and I had a great time making up songs to sing to him. If you could have been there all of you would be laughing at our feeble attempts to entertain the Mad-man.
No on to today. My poor poor baby boy caught a nasty stomach bug and he has been so so sick all day. He threw up about 7 times and was so weak. I felt so bad for him. My mom came over to help me (THANK YOU SO MUCH MOM! I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD HAVE DONE WITHOUT YOU) Luckily, Maddox has not gotten sick in the last 3 hours so hopefully the worst is behind us. Please keep him in your prayers though, he still does not feel very well.
Well, here is what I have learned the last few days. There are times when Maddox just needs his mom. He wants me to hold him, to love on him, to entertain him, to feed him, to rock him. He does not want anyone else, just his mom (and let me tell you, it melts my heart) Last night I was rocking him and trying to get him to go to sleep and I looked at his peaceful face and the Lord began to speak to me. So often I picture the Lord as a Father figure and I began to picture our Savior as a Mom. Because our Lord is ALL things, He is in fact a Father to us, but HE is also a Mother to us. He holds us when we don't feel well, He comforts us, He plays with us, He encourages us, He feeds us. He is all things to us. I long to "need" our Savior as much as Maddox needs me at times. I want to be completely incontinent until I am wrapped in the arms of our Lord. I long to spit out any "bottle" until I am being fed by the Lord. I long to not be able to sleep until I have been held and talked to from our Lord and Savior.
The Madd-man in his suit!!
Not a happy camper!!
Getting so fresh and so clean clean
Maddox and Aunt Kim
Brad and his momma at the Fair (Look at those blue eyes)
Maddox at the Fair, such a happy boy
Maddox and Grandmom Voda
Maddox and Grandpa Voda playing
our sweet slobbery boy
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
I finally feel at peace when I walk into a church, to be honest, I never thought the day would come again!
Later that day Brad had a work picnic at a local park and we had a really good time. Maddox did great and enjoyed the people and especially watching the other kids. Papa gave him his first "piggy-back-ride" and helped him bounce in the big bouncy thing. It was a great time of fellowship and I'm so glad we went!!
When we got home Sunday Brad's mom called with the dreadful news that his grandma had passed away. Please keep the Kalivoda family in your prayers as they are needing peace and strength from our Lord and Savior!! We will be traveling to Oklahoma City sometime this week for the service and to be with family!!
Here are the pics from this weekend!!!
Brad and Maddox before church!! Oh how handsome!!!
Having fun at the picnic
Monday, September 15, 2008
What did YOU do this weekend???
Maddox trying to pull up in his crib and making his new silly face
Maddox and Sarah enjoying a good "Peek-a-Boo" Book
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
The night of Maddox's 8 month birthday he....*Drum Roll Please*....SLEPT THROUGH THE NIGHT!!! Yes, ladies and gentlemen, our sweet big boy finally slept through the entire night, I did not have to get up with him a single time!!! Oh this is something I have been praying for for a very long time now. The Lord heard my cries and provided us with a full nights rest!!!
8 GR8 (Great) things about our 8 month old
*he holds his own bottle and doesn't get milk everywhere now!
*he takes great naps (not always long naps, but goes down for naps very easily)
*he laughs a lot these days
*he is starting to pull up when sitting in his crib
*he is crawling backwards (more of a scoot backwards)
*he has great hand eye coordination, mastering that "pincher"
*recognizes voices (searches the entire room for you when he hears you talking)
*babble babble babble babble (getting closer to "Mama")
Friday, September 5, 2008
Maddox's squinty face when he smiles or babbles
The way Maddox's face lights up when Brad comes into a room
The sweet expression on Maddox's face when he is sleeping
The new voices Maddox discovers on a daily basis
The way Maddox tracks people with his eyes. He will move his head side to side just to follow you if you walk out of the room or out of his sight. It is adorable.
Maddox's sweet sweet smile
The way he smells after bath time
Babble Babble Babble
The way he looks at me when I go to get him out of his crib
The eagerness of Maddox's eating. He will NEVER miss a meal.
The toothless grin
All the inquiry in his eyes. He can be such a serious boy as he attempts to discover this strange world
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Wow what a weekend. The Voda Grandparents (Brad's parents) came into town Thursday evening and were able to stay until Tuesday morning. We had a wonderful time with them, Maddox was a complete joy...it was great!!! Saturday Brad, Grandpa Voda and I went to the Tech game while Grandmom Voda and Maddox spent some much needed quality time together, I believe we all had a good time! Sunday we had a cook out at my mom's house and Monday we drove to Lake Allen Henry and just looked around. Maddox loved all the play time he got with grandpa and he is still loving the new toys! We were so blessed to have them here and we cherished every moment!
This week God has tought me some amazing things and provided me with a new perspective on the life we live. Here is a little background info so just stick with me.....This week we decided it was time wean Maddox off of the nightime feedings and help him discover a way to sleep through the night. We just had to let him cry-it-out and that is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do (although I know it is what is best for him and me as well, it is just so hard to listen to him give that huge sobbing cry and look into those eyes that are saying "why aren't you doing anything for me"). Luckily he is doing so well with it and the nighttime feedings are offically gone (I am still having to get up a couple times during the night to give him the pacifier; however, it only took a few days to eliminate the feedings and he is doing better and better every night and sleeping longer, thus making all of us happy)
Ok, so here is where the Lord has really spoken to me. The hardest part for me letting Maddox cry-it-out, was the fear that he would think I was ignoring him or I did not love him because I was not coming to him while he was crying. God has shown me that He has to do the same thing to us sometimes. We sit there and cry and cry and cry to Him, sobbing for Him to provide for us the things that we think we "need" We look to Him with those eyes as if to say "why are you ignoring me....do you NOT hear my cry" However, the Lord is calmly saying, "my child, I hear your cry and it hurts me so badly to know that you are hurting so much, but I know what is best for you and I promise you will be better off in the long run. I am NOT ignoring you and I love you more that you will ever know." How many times do we feel the Lord has simply turned His back on us and He is ignoring our cries; however, He is letting us cry-it-out as He is strengthening us and making us wait for what He has in store. OH I am so thankful the Lord does not give into our cries when He knows there is something so much better for us!!!
Monday, September 1, 2008
***It's generally pretty quiet around the blogosphere on holidays. Just for fun, I thought I'd pull out this meme (chain letter) I found. In honor of Labor Day, it's about...well, labor. And not the kind you get a day off for, either.
How long were your labors?
Well the actual labor process was about 5 hours max; however, I was in the hospital the night before Maddox was delivered (January 7, 2008), they put me on cervidil to help the labor process the proceeding day. They next morning they gave me pitocine at about 7am to get the contractions going and I was given my epidural. My body took over and Maddox was delivered at 12:35pm on January 8, 2008. It was a super easy delivery....God certainly blessed me with a wonderful pregnancy and labor/delivery.
How did you know you were in labor?
I was induced, so the monitors showing the contractions showed that I was in labor. Like I said, super easy delivery.
Where did you delivery?
Oh yes.....loved them!!!
not for this gal....Maddox was ready and did great...there was no need for one...but I certainly was not opposed to it....I just wanted Maddox to be healthy and I would do whatever that would take!!!
Dr. Burkholder. He did a great job, Maddox was born healthy and there weren't any problems along the way!!! (He is the one in the picture below with Brad and baby Maddox)